It's annoying when I try to have a conversation with someone lately and I can tell they're deliberately avoiding telling me anything even slightly negative. I've had them tell me it's because I'm already going through enough. Well, yeah, I am. But that doesn't mean I don't want to know what's happening in the lives of my friends, too. Good and bad. I still care about people, even if I seem a little self centered right now. I'm still the same old me, just a slightly more stressed out version. I've always been one to offer support to friends when they need it. That hasn't changed. Besides, it gets my mind off of my own problems for a little while.
Today is my breast ultrasound. I'm worried about it. That's all I have to say about that for now.
I have felt so lonely lately. I'm trying not to. I've been thinking about what I said about needing someone constant and always available. I realized what I need is my mom. I think everything would be a little more bearable if she was still alive. She was never big on giving advice unless I really pushed her for it, but she was the perfect person for making me feel better in any situation.
I need so many hugs.
8:15 a.m. - 2014-05-29