I'm an idiot. This hurts so much. Is it reasonable to miss someone beyond belief after only 15 hours? What if it's someone you've never actually met? Fuck Reason, anyways. I never did get along well with Reason.
I'm so mad at myself. Furious. We both knew that would be the one thing that would stop this from working out. Why couldn't I just let us stay in denial, stay happy a little longer? I always have to open my big fucking mouth.
He said he'd be around if I wanted to talk, so I tried talking. Then he said he had to work on his writing and talking would be too much of a distraction. I guess I deserve that. It feels wrong not to talk to him. Like a huge piece of me is missing. Hopefully when he's made his deadline he'll be more willing to speak to me.
6:52 a.m. - 2014-04-08