I think I should clarify that me getting over that guy wasn't because of anyone else. It kind of happened all at once. I realized one day that he's not what I really want, though I do credit him for making me really look inside to start figuring myself out, which led to me thinking about what I do want.
Honestly, what I really want is for my husband to change. But I don't think that will happen. I wish there was a way for me to be at peace with that, but there isn't. I can't see myself being ok with how things are anymore.
What I would like in a any future partner is to be treated like just that, a partner. Love and kindness and respect. I want someone who will share in all the responsibilities that a relationship together would entail. More than that, I'd like someone who would take an interest in the things I am interested in. Someone who will actually do things with me because they'd want to, not because I'd have to beg.
But ultimately, relationships aside, what I want is to learn to be happy with myself, in whatever situation I may end up with.
2:13 p.m. - 2014-07-27