Dear Self:
Do.
Not.
Email.
Him.
Just don't do it. It will only make you sad if he doesn't reply, and chances are he'll only say things that make you sad if he does.
But it's SO HARD. I've spent all day sad and missing him.
It's been a week. I am weak.
I don't know what I want him to say, anyways. Almost anything, I think. Call me babydoll one more time. I always thought that was cute, and I miss it a lot.
I don't know what I want from anyone anymore. Not even myself. I'd just like to stop being sad. I need a break from life. A coma. A period of time where I'm unaware and peaceful.
6:35 p.m. - 2014-04-22