I'm going to stay with my husband. To think I can take care of myself right now is a fucking joke. I could survive maybe a couple of months with the job I have now.
I'm so bitter right now. I do want him to be happy in life, don't think I don't want that. But he filled me with the promise of a happy life too, and now I'm just empty. I mean, how would you feel?
I'm trying really hard to channel all this extra love into my husband. I can tell it's making him happy. I wish it was making me happy, too. The most I can do is just try to make the best of things for now.
I wish I knew what he was thinking. I wish that I didn't wish that. I wish I could just make this magically go away somehow.
1:09 p.m. - 2014-04-18