God, I'm heartbroken. Every single time I think about this it feels like a hole is being punched right through my chest.
And that is making me fucking angry.
I am so mad right now. Why? Why did this have to happen now? I have surgery next week, my marriage sucks, and all this hurt and grief. It's just too much. It's too fucking much for one person to handle.
I want to yell at him. I actually kind of want to punch him right in the dick. Really. I want him to see how horrible this is for me. Mostly I just miss him and it's tearing me up.
2:53 p.m. - 2014-04-16