I finally told my best friend all of the troubles between my husband and me. It wasn't the most pleasant discussion. There's more to it than what I've said here. Some recent developments that are...troubling. I don't feel really comfortable posting it all yet, but I might, eventually.
All I know is that on one side, I feel better that someone knows it all, but on the other I feel so sad and depressed and drained. I'm doing the best I can to keep myself together, and I still kind of suck at it.
He, the other man that I love, is having his second set of company this week. From tomorrow until Wednesday. I'm having my port placed Wednesday, so hopefully by the time I get home he'll be around for a few minutes to chat. He's been so busy lately, I miss him. It's a difficult situation. Maybe someday it will be simpler, but I'm too scared to truly hope for that right now.
Someday life will be easier. Hopefully.
9:06 p.m. - 2014-06-06