I told him today that leaving him alone is too hard and too heart breaking. He said he doesn't want me to leave him alone. That's a relief.
I told him that I don't know what he wants, but I can do friends. If he wants more, I don't know if I can or if I should or how I feel about that. To do that again is to risk losing more of my heart. I don't know if I could stand that. I cried so much. I could hardly eat for three days.
But I do love him. And that's almost enough to erase every bad thing.
11:57 p.m. - 2014-04-29